“You have one new message in your mailbox”

You might think so dear but i cant carry the weight of the world on my shoulders. you think you can but I’m sorry those are only boulders. Asking me to be every man you’ve ever hugged while asking you to be the only one I’ve ever loved. There’s some contrast here even if you cant see it. The difference between a line dance and a mosh-pit, well you can feel it. This selfish little dance you do not caring who you have to go through. One day I’m glad to say your boulders will come crashing down and all those friends you thought you had will be laughing all around. “lets all just fake it so for her sake she can take it” We’ll just leave you one by one and by the end see whose having fun. This all sounds so bad until you realize what you had but its a little late now my dear, you’ve already lost one i fear. that one is me so lets just see all you can be without that pillar by your side every night you cried, when you were alone and it was my voice on the phone, all those times you came to me.. well now you’re free. I hope you smile if only for awhile because that’s all i ever longed to see the most beautiful person you could be. I know its still there somewhere deep inside where you keep all those things you try and hide. To bad the people all around you don’t see you like me. Its a pity really. Oh well you have a voice and its your choice so one day when you come running home remember this message on your phone. I love you.

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Every mans an old man.

Like the things that he said that roll through my head.I can turn around and shoot it then fall asleep to it. Wake up and its there well shit life’s not fair. Would you like a sample? A poor mans life, what a perfect example. Because its to far to get it when my mind feel so shifted to some poor mans dreams pouring out of old vending machines. It calls itself i but no thoughts are inside. Funny how it always works like answers in books. Seems so easy on paper until we try other flavors. Guess we’ll never understand even with his heart in our hand. And when we look at his face he still dreams of that place where his hopes wont die like every love by his side. Now all that is left inside his once fiery soul is nothing more than regret and some slightly red coal. Slowly burning away like every promise he made. It lingers from when he was a boy soon to burn out like last years toy. All that keeps him hear are whispers in his ear, I’m sure their not real but its all he can feel. He thinks he’s okay so we’ll live him that way. The sad thing is he is you, he is me, its the price we pay to be free.

Slammed.

This road stretches out forever before my eyes. So far away… that place where i can show my insides. Where i can be no one. Where even the strong fall apart. To bad ill never get there too old now, forgot to start. i just want to believe. My heart on my sleeve. stuck in my head like a night alone in my bed. funny how that sounds, you know when your thoughts bounce around. we all know what its like. placing all your bets on left when you know its right. always tomorrow dancing near its not the wait between moments its the next moves i fear. What choices will i have to make? sacrificing everything just for a little piece of you that i cant take. . trust me babe this one will make you comfortable. why? well its simple. you said you like comedies lets put you in my place. watch it. then laugh at each scene. But that’s only if you got it. I kind of thought so but still couldn’t spot it. Oh well its ironic. because you well you were right there, and i was right on it.

Sing it with me!

Oh shit children its a violent tomorrow. But seriously cut it out with all that sorrow. We all end up like dust anyway. So say it with me. fuck you! we’ll sin our lives away. Baby you know we party..and none of that pussy ass Bacardi. Whiskey drunk and hell bound. One of these days you’ll come around. Your just a kid anyways it doesn’t even matter. Ill just watch you cry and call it laughter.

Realization

Tonight its like everyone i know and love is right here with me. Though some in person, others are here in my soul. Tonight the sky is on fire and i will bathe in its light. The crisp cold air on my skin and the warmth of love in my heart shining for all to see..but most of all it shines for you. All my love…everything i am pouring right out of me into the night. For anyone. For everyone. Tonight is fire. Tonight i love you all. We are blessed to breath and even more to die. For with out an ending times like these would mean nothing. It is in the fear of losing it all when we realize who we are. When i realize who you are and how much i love you. Tonight we are together. Tomorrow never really mattered.  For all of this i am blessed and for a moment i realize i am thankful. Tonight i smile. Tonight dear, we are alive.

Closure.

The world is not suppose to look like this. A cold dark place of nothing i miss. Lets make this a better place. together. Everything is racing through my head. We all end up dead. together. Don’t expect my grace so lightly. yes dear there are demons inside me.Unlike you i work for what i get. A man like me has no place to rest. Go ahead look through yourself and see what you find. Baby its time to leave the dead men behind.

Reckoning

Grab the wheel lets take these mother fuckers to hell. The 9th circle where only the most evil dwell. Its really all bullshit but its fun to pretend. Scare the living shit out of believers, they call themselves men. Kneeling and praising a fabrication. Their world will end and i will laugh at the looks on their faces. Dear god if only you were as good as everyone thought leaving all those innocent people to rot. Oh well, you aren’t my lord…tear everything down you built with this wonderful sword. Sorry baby but were way past ink pens. Unfortunately you must decide, now is the time for reasons. Your cruel joke is ending. Men will choose sides while you contemplate fence sitting. These battle lines are drawn in more than just blood. Ha! Ha! and they were scared of the flood.

Birdys

Your birds eye view of life you wish you had is shaking with every swipe of my pretty little hand.

Tonight Tonight.

You know I’m high from watching you move the way you carry yourself through the room. I know what its like to lose hope but not this time baby its all for show.Nothing matters more when me and you are on the floor. your skin glistens in the moonlight. hold me closer, hold me tight. Sink your nails in my back for one more night.

bedhead?

You are the only girl in my bed but I’m sad to say I’m not the only boy running through your head.