5/11/08 15:56
I’m not sure where we are or where we are going. I know that I am sorry though… I think about it now because you are second guessing, it makes me feel it was too fast. So I don’t want to do anything like that again until you are sure you want to be with me. I love you to death but that’s not the problem. I don’t think you’re really ready to get involved with me yet though. I’m here to be yours, to love, to hold, to cherish every moment I am with you. I know you are not ready I can feel it. I think there will be a point soon where you will have to really decide what you are going to do. Will you get out of this with me and wait to try again or will you forget what worries you and jump? I don’t know and I don’t pretend to. I know it will be hard for you but I think it will have to happen. I wish I could put all my reasons in your head. I wish I could force you to be with me but I can’t. There will be a time when I know your decision. I will be single or when I see you and it was like it was before. You smiled at me just because I was there, I knew that you would rather be nowhere else but right there with me. You will hug and kiss me for exactly who I am. You may tell me in other ways but at one point I will know. But dear god I don’t know when. That is what haunts me, but I’m ready. Take your time and make your decision. I will be holding my breath waiting for the letter that says <3 Chloe so beautifully as it does on Sam’s poster. I will see that look in your eyes when I know you want to be with me. That moment I see the sign that shows me that you will love me for exactly who I am. It’s not up to me though; it’s all in your head and in your heart. You hold the key to our future. So do what you need to do, struggle, cry, tell me, talk to your friends and family, tell me what I need to change, but when you find the answer don’t be afraid to tell me no matter what it is. Your decision no matter what it is will not affect my feelings towards you. It may affect how I am able to express those feelings towards you but nothing else. I will always love you. I think I knew a girl around a week ago who knew exactly what she wanted, because I could see it in her eyes. What changed?
Yours Truly,
George
P.S.
I’m not afraid of being hurt, I’m afraid of not being loved.
5/11/08 15:56
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